FLORIDA BOUND.......
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Life comes with so many different  twists and turns......seasons of life....chapters end....and we move on. Our time in Missouri is coming to an end.

We have sold our home to a very dear friend. I told her over a year ago, we wanted to sell our house. At that time, we were looking to go to senior housing....downsize.....again! But then Doug's health took a turn for the worse...and we re-evaluated our options. The one that made the most sense financially, once the house sold was to go back to Florida. A HUGE decision for Doug. He thought it over for a very long time...and because I wanted to go back to Florida.....and  he wanted to know where I would live...and know I was all settled in a good place...he could "relax" and know I was OK. The thought of leaving Rio is almost too much for his heart to bear!......SO PLEASE keep him in prayer. He says his heart gets heavy every time he thinks of driving OUT of Columbia, and leaving Rio behind!

As for the sale of the house...it has been a sale that came about in a very unexpected way! And the amazing thing is......God brought three ladies  together who became not only friends, but prayer partners who have and continue to walk side by side through some extremely heart breaking life experiences over the last few years...... with NO idea either of our lives would bring us to a place were we each would need a new place to live. One, to my buyers house...my buyer, to our house and Doug and I on to Florida ....but our hearts will FOREVER be connected as Sisters in Christ.....who have shared a LOT of laughter, tears and priceless times together with The Lord. He has so faithfully walked along our paths with us....side by side.....collected our tears in His Bottle...and He keeps them by His Thrown.......He has smiled with us, as we giggled like teenagers...and covered us with His Grace when we "lost it". We let Him into our anger, pain and  emotions...no matter what the emotions were. He was never afraid of our roller coaster of emotions.....He rode the roller coaster with us...and still is...and will continue to in the weeks and months ahead! As we used to say as young girls...."Friends 4 Ever!"It has been a privilege to share my heart with them....they both enriched my life and my walk with the Lord...I look forward to having a Florida Beach Party with them one day!

For me, Leaving Renee and family behind.....I can't dwell on it...because it will leave a pain in my heart....Renee and family have been such a blessing to Doug and I over the last 8 years ♥ ALWAYS willing to help us...no matter the need. Renee and I have such different perspectives in life...but at the core of our hearts is a mutual respect and love that distance will never take away! I love you Renee. Thank you for being such a great Daughter and Mom for Rio.....you are his biggest champion ♥ (Then Papa is...and then I guess I come in about 3rd. But I'm OK with that!) Love you both so much, and will miss you terribly! You will have to get Skype though Nay! Please?

We close on the house the 13th of May..and our buyer is giving us a couple of weeks or whatever  we will need to bring things to a close here. We have so much packed and sold already....Remember, we started this "moving process" over a year ago! Doug's son William will be coming the 18th of April to spend a couple weeks with us. He will be helping us do the last of the packing! That will be a huge blessing. Doug's brother Curt is flying up to help drive back. Hospice is helping us plan the drive back. We will be doing only about 5 hours a day. They will have oxygen at each stop already for him. And they are helping us connect to a Florida Hospice even before we get there!

Once we get back to Florida, we have been invited to stay with some dear friends who have offered to share their home to us, till we close on a condo in Sun City. We will be joining other friends and family who already live there! Bottom line...God has got us so covered in this big move......He has had it planned for a very long time...He alone knew what our future held...and He started putting this together in HIS way...and He continues to cover us with His Love and courage.

Are the days tough....YES...but He is and will continue to walk with us right in the middle of it all...filling us with courage and strength..."One Day At A Time".....Thank you LORD! Thank you ALL for your continued prayers! Oh how we depend on them!

                                                                                               In His Love, Doug and Sylvia

♥ January 2013 ♥ A New Year TOGETHER ♥
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Originally posted by sylvias_journal at ♥ January 2013 ♥ A New Year TOGETHER ♥

Not many folks here on earth are given the gift by their Lord of knowing
their time here is short.....and to see and accept it as a "gift" is
NOT easy. Speaking for myself," I have walked this path with my Mom" and
it was a privilege.....and with that privilege came a LOT of emotional
pain...and an amazing peace.....right in the middle of the emotional ups and downs.

I've had this portion of what I wrote in my first entry bouncing around in my heart and head for weeks now. And it is time to set the record straight....The path I walked with my Mom was unique to her, my relationship with her and her life experiences and personality.  The ONLY thing the same is; we  knew her time was short and we had God with us.and Hospice help.

The relationship one has with a loved one varies and thus the walk with them as you face the end of your lives together IS different. Do I still believe it is a privilege...YES.....filled with HIS PEACE...YES.....RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF OUR UPS AND DOWNS!

Doug has been so blessed with friends, family and visitors locally, it has blown him away. He never realized he was loved and cared for so much! He has had many phone conversation that have brought deep inner healing and restoration of broken relationships. He has said many a time over the last few weeks.."If I knew folks would be this loving, I'd have said I was dying a long time ago!"

The best family time was when Curt, Elaine, Leah, Jeff and their girls came for a visit between Thanksgiving and Christmas ♥ Those days spent together went waaay beyond his wildest dreams of JOY and family unity ♥ The hours spent on our front porch laughing and sharing our hearts full of love...PRICELESS ♥ We were BLESSED with PERFECT weather ♥ He said it was the BEST VISIT HE'D EVER HAD WITH FAMILY ♥ (NOT to say all the others were not good...just that this one was EXTRA SPECIAL!)  ♥  I'm sporting a beautiful winter shawl, and Doug has some soft and very nice warm sweat pants from Elaine and Curt...and He also has the softest blue flannel robe from Leah and Jeff! Leah...he wraps himself up with it, EVERY time he goes out on the porch! We were so blessed by their generosity ♥ Our afternoon in Arrow rock was made EXTRA SPECIAL by Brenda Christy's special attention to us as we visited and SHOPPED in her BEAUTIFUL Store! Then from there we went to Blackwater for our VERY Special Traditional Christmas Dinner at The Iron Horse Restaurant ! The folks there went out of their way to make that dinner and evening the BEST EVER ♥  ♥ We ALL made memories we will hold in our hearts FOREVER ♥  Parting from each other at the end of our time together was such "sweet sorrow" though.....I don't think I ever understood the depth of the meaning of those words before! We sure miss you all so much!

Fam pic1 nbsp;   Family photo taken after our PERFECT dinner at The Iron Horse, Blackwater, Mo.

FAMAnother Family photo taken outside Brenda's Store in Arrowrock, Mo.

BRENDAAleksandran, Jada, (Leah and Jeff's two girls)....Brenda and Elaine...Elaine is sporting her new scarf!...

Christmas...well, let's just say, "we got through it." I was sick the week prior and after....It was also time when we were doing more paper work  to settle financial things after The Lord calls him home....Power of Attorney..and all that "stuff".....it seems like we keep coming up with more legal papers to get signed...in case "this happens" or "that happens"......and making "final arrangements"..we still have more papers to process.....let's just say...it wasn't what one would choose to be concentrating on over "The Holidays"!...... The good news is we were able to get these things done....things EVERYONE should do, actually.....But we had put off over the years.......Hospice has been a HUGE blessing with ALL of this! ....Our little Christmas Tree was brought up from the basement Christmas morning.....and it's STILL sitting on the trunk.....waiting to be "Bagged up" and taken back to the basement......it'll get there one day....Renee and Steve and Rio spent Christmas with us...Steve made a fantastic dinner...He's the BEST cook eva!....It was a nice quiet day...surrounded by family who love us ♥ New Years....just another night to go to sleep early and then  New Years day OFF TOGETHER ♥ ♥

So, now we're 12 days into this new year........and He is STILL walking with us...moment by moment....STILL blessing us with so very much! A couple of the men from church (Bubba and Paul), have been visiting with Doug each week...such a BLESSING!....We have been monetarily blessed by Hospice and friends...WAAAY beyond our wildest dreams! And I just have to share our latest blessing...A very dear friend came for a visit last Sunday and asked if she could buy our house!....NOW THAT made both our jaws drop! She'd prayed about it...and had just been waiting for the "right time" to tell us.....HIS TIMING IS ALWAYS PERFECT....The details still have to be worked out...but HE IS SO in control...My question to myself was...WHY AM I SO SURPRISED? Our GOD IS GOOD.....ALL THE TIME...  Where will we go?.....We're already looking for a place....(if anyone in our area knows of a place that will be available for rent in May.....let me know.) We'd like Senior Housing...But I KNOW HE ALREADY KNOWS how this will all work out! He has us covered...and the prayers of friends and family are being answered...His way...His Timing...I am reminded of one of our daily readings from "Jesus Calling"

"Much, much stress results from your wanting to make things happen BEFORE their times come. One of the ways I assert  MY sovereignty is in the TIMING of events. If you want to stay close to ME and do things MY way, ask ME to show you the path forward  MOMENT BY MOMENT. Instead of dashing toward your goal, let ME set the pace. SLOW DOWN, and ENJOY the journey in MY Presence"  (Caps mine) Taken from my daily reading in "Jesus Calling"

Luke 1:7 "For NOTHING is impossible WITH GOD!"


Doug and I are still doing our morning devotions together.....not every morning, but when he is feeling OK and awake. STILL listening to our Gaither Homecoming Video's....I got that special cord and so I can put the video's from YouTube up on our big screen and we both can see and listen to them as I get ready for work in the mornings.  We are able to Skype and he can see family and friends easily up on the big screen! Problem is...he's NOT happy about folks seeing him! But he let's me put the camera on him for a few minutes anyway!

Hospice comes 3 times a week....Doug's had a couple of pretty rough times, but they are ALWAYS here as fast as they can get here! His courage and strength  fluctuates from day to day...sometimes, hour by hour...It's a tough adjustment to have a nurse help you with your persona care.....feeling his strength slowly slip away from him.....to be "stuck" home...no truck...not getting out for a ride around the country side like he has done ever since we moved to Missouri. He has ALWAYS LOVED the farm country around here. He'd ride for hours all over Copper and Howard County...by himself and with Rio..and sometimes he and Rio would even let me go with them!l .......On the positive side....He has so enjoyed phone calls from old friends he grew up with, like Tommy Sammons....and of course his son William! He and William talk almost daily! It's great for both of them!.......Yet he sure hasn't "given up"! His sense of humor is as crazy and strong as ever.....this mornings example was; and I quote, "Hay Honey, I know what I want to "Come Back as!.... Me... "What Doug?"  Doug.... "My head encased in a bowling ball! It would be so cool! No one else would have one like it! Me..."Sure Doug! I''ll have it encased in clear hard plastic." NOW what else do you say to an idea like THAT....from a loved one on Hospice?! ! That's my Man.

As for me....your prayers to our loving God keep me going! There are days that going to work....(leaving Doug home alone).... and caring for other folks loved one makes me want to cry...and sometimes I do....then His gentle Spirit reminds me of just how much He loves us both....how much He has blessed us...and how much strength He provides us with....DAILY! A couple of friends have said to me, "I don't know how you do it! You are always so up beat and happy! My answer....."Without The Lord...I'd be a sniffling heap of tears on the floor every day!" The prayers of you all DO make a huge difference for BOTH Doug and I!  We both have done things we "never thought we could do.".....Our daily time with Him is our  foundation for each day.....The portion below of another devotional from "Jesus Calling" was just ANOTHER of HIS reminders to us both...JUST what we needed that day.

"True dependence is NOT simply asking Me to bless what YOU have decided to do. It is coming to ME with an OPEN mind
and heart, inviting Me to plant MY desires within you. I may infuse within you a dream that seems far beyond your reach.

You KNOW that in yourself you cannot achieve such a goal.

Thus begins your journey of PROFOUND RELIANCE ON ME. It is a FAITH-WALK, take ONE STEP AT A TIME, leaning on ME as much as you need. This is NOT a path of continual success but of MULTIPLE failures. However, each failure is followed by a GROWTH
SPURT, nourished by INCREASED RELIANCE ON ME!

ENJOY THE BLESSEDNESS of a VICTORIOUS life, through deepening your dependence on ME.

PS. 34:17 & 18 The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; He
delivers them from ALL their troubles. The Lord is CLOSE to the
brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

2 Cor. 5:7 For we walk by faith, NOT by sight. (Jesus Calling Jan 5th 2013
"

Boy do I know those failures!.....the growth spurts....well, in time.....looking back over these months, the growth will be more evident......now....I choose to keep my eyes and heart on HIM ♥ For I KNOW I CANNOT ACHIEVE SUCH A GOAL WITHOUT HIM! So Lord...infuse YOUR dreams deep within Doug and I as we continue our journey of PROFOUND RELIANCE ON YOU. It IS a faith walk, taken ONE STEP AT A TIME, LEANING ON HIM as often as we need to!

Thank you all for your continued prayers and love. The phone calls are wonderful. He's getting pretty good at letting folks know if he's tired and when he needs to hang up. After a call, he'll go over the memories each conversation has remind him of ♥ His walks down memory lane have been good!

Oh...and on another note...if you bless us with your comments..PLEASE post them on this site...(Otherwise I paste and copy them here)....they are ALWAYS  a blessing...and BE SURE YOU PUT YOUR NAME WITHIN THE POST ♥


♥ January 2013 ♥ A New Year TOGETHER ♥
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"Speaking for myself,' I have walked this path with my Mom' and
it was a privilege.....and with that privilege came a LOT of emotional
pain...and an amazing peace.....right in the middle of the emotional ups and downs".

I've had this portion of what I wrote in my first entry bouncing around in my heart and head for weeks now. And it is time to set the record straight....The path I walked with my Mom was unique to her, my relationship with her and her life experiences and personality.  The ONLY thing the same is; we  knew her time was short and we had God with us.and Hospice help.

The relationship one has with a loved one varies and thus the walk with them as you face the end of your lives together IS different. Do I still believe it is a privilege...YES.....filled with HIS PEACE...YES.....RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF OUR UPS AND DOWNS!

Doug has been so blessed with friends, family and visitors locally, it has blown him away. He never realized he was loved and cared for so much! He has had many phone conversation that have brought deep inner healing and restoration of broken relationships. He has said many a time over the last few weeks.."If I knew folks would be this loving, I'd have said I was dying a long time ago!"

The best family time was when Curt, Elaine, Leah, Jeff and their girls came for a visit between Thanksgiving and Christmas ♥ Those days spent together went waaay beyond his wildest dreams of JOY and family unity ♥ The hours spent on our front porch laughing and sharing our hearts full of love...PRICELESS ♥ We were BLESSED with PERFECT weather ♥ He said it was the BEST VISIT HE'D EVER HAD WITH FAMILY ♥ (NOT to say all the others were not good...just that this one was EXTRA SPECIAL!)  ♥  I'm sporting a beautiful winter shawl, and Doug has some soft and very nice warm sweat pants from Elaine and Curt...and He also has the softest blue flannel robe from Leah and Jeff! Leah...he wraps himself up with it, EVERY time he goes out on the porch! We were so blessed by their generosity ♥ Our afternoon in Arrow rock was made EXTRA SPECIAL by Brenda Christy's special attention to us as we visited and SHOPPED in her BEAUTIFUL Store! Then from there we went to Blackwater for our VERY Special Traditional Christmas Dinner at The Iron Horse Restaurant ! The folks there went out of their way to make that dinner and evening the BEST EVER ♥  ♥ We ALL made memories we will hold in our hearts FOREVER ♥  Parting from each other at the end of our time together was such "sweet sorrow" though.....I don't think I ever understood the depth of the meaning of those words before! We sure miss you all so much!

Fam pic1 nbsp;   Family photo taken after our PERFECT dinner at The Iron Horse, Blackwater, Mo.

FAMAnother Family photo taken outside Brenda's Store in Arrowrock, Mo.

BRENDAAleksandran, Jada, (Leah and Jeff's two girls)....Brenda and Elaine...Elaine is sporting her new scarf!...

Christmas...well, let's just say, "we got through it." I was sick the week prior and after....It was also time when we were doing more paper work  to settle financial things after The Lord calls him home....Power of Attorney..and all that "stuff".....it seems like we keep coming up with more legal papers to get signed...in case "this happens" or "that happens"......and making "final arrangements"..we still have more papers to process.....let's just say...it wasn't what one would choose to be concentrating on over "The Holidays"!...... The good news is we were able to get these things done....things EVERYONE should do, actually.....But we had put off over the years.......Hospice has been a HUGE blessing with ALL of this! ....Our little Christmas Tree was brought up from the basement Christmas morning.....and it's STILL sitting on the trunk.....waiting to be "Bagged up" and taken back to the basement......it'll get there one day....Renee and Steve and Rio spent Christmas with us...Steve made a fantastic dinner...He's the BEST cook eva!....It was a nice quiet day...surrounded by family who love us ♥ New Years....just another night to go to sleep early and then  New Years day OFF TOGETHER ♥ ♥

So, now we're 12 days into this new year........and He is STILL walking with us...moment by moment....STILL blessing us with so very much! A couple of the men from church (Bubba and Paul), have been visiting with Doug each week...such a BLESSING!....We have been monetarily blessed by Hospice and friends...WAAAY beyond our wildest dreams! And I just have to share our latest blessing...A very dear friend came for a visit last Sunday and asked if she could buy our house!....NOW THAT made both our jaws drop! She'd prayed about it...and had just been waiting for the "right time" to tell us.....HIS TIMING IS ALWAYS PERFECT....The details still have to be worked out...but HE IS SO in control...My question to myself was...WHY AM I SO SURPRISED? Our GOD IS GOOD.....ALL THE TIME...  Where will we go?.....We're already looking for a place....(if anyone in our area knows of a place that will be available for rent in May.....let me know.) We'd like Senior Housing...But I KNOW HE ALREADY KNOWS how this will all work out! He has us covered...and the prayers of friends and family are being answered...His way...His Timing...I am reminded of one of our daily readings from "Jesus Calling"

"Much, much stress results from your wanting to make things happen BEFORE their times come. One of the ways I assert  MY sovereignty is in the TIMING of events. If you want to stay close to ME and do things MY way, ask ME to show you the path forward  MOMENT BY MOMENT. Instead of dashing toward your goal, let ME set the pace. SLOW DOWN, and ENJOY the journey in MY Presence"  (Caps mine) Taken from my daily reading in "Jesus Calling"

Luke 1:7 "For NOTHING is impossible WITH GOD!"


Doug and I are still doing our morning devotions together.....not every morning, but when he is feeling OK and awake. STILL listening to our Gaither Homecoming Video's....I got that special cord and so I can put the video's from YouTube up on our big screen and we both can see and listen to them as I get ready for work in the mornings.  We are able to Skype and he can see family and friends easily up on the big screen! Problem is...he's NOT happy about folks seeing him! But he let's me put the camera on him for a few minutes anyway!

Hospice comes 3 times a week....Doug's had a couple of pretty rough times, but they are ALWAYS here as fast as they can get here! His courage and strength  fluctuates from day to day...sometimes, hour by hour...It's a tough adjustment to have a nurse help you with your persona care.....feeling his strength slowly slip away from him.....to be "stuck" home...no truck...not getting out for a ride around the country side like he has done ever since we moved to Missouri. He has ALWAYS LOVED the farm country around here. He'd ride for hours all over Copper and Howard County...by himself and with Rio..and sometimes he and Rio would even let me go with them!l .......On the positive side....He has so enjoyed phone calls from old friends he grew up with, like Tommy Sammons....and of course his son William! He and William talk almost daily! It's great for both of them!.......Yet he sure hasn't "given up"! His sense of humor is as crazy and strong as ever.....this mornings example was; and I quote, "Hay Honey, I know what I want to "Come Back as!.... Me... "What Doug?"  Doug.... "My head encased in a bowling ball! It would be so cool! No one else would have one like it! Me..."Sure Doug! I''ll have it encased in clear hard plastic." NOW what else do you say to an idea like THAT....from a loved one on Hospice?! ! That's my Man.

As for me....your prayers to our loving God keep me going! There are days that going to work....(leaving Doug home alone).... and caring for other folks loved one makes me want to cry...and sometimes I do....then His gentle Spirit reminds me of just how much He loves us both....how much He has blessed us...and how much strength He provides us with....DAILY! A couple of friends have said to me, "I don't know how you do it! You are always so up beat and happy! My answer....."Without The Lord...I'd be a sniffling heap of tears on the floor every day!" The prayers of you all DO make a huge difference for BOTH Doug and I!  We both have done things we "never thought we could do.".....Our daily time with Him is our  foundation for each day.....The portion below of another devotional from "Jesus Calling" was just ANOTHER of HIS reminders to us both...JUST what we needed that day.

"True dependence is NOT simply asking Me to bless what YOU have decided to do. It is coming to ME with an OPEN mind
and heart, inviting Me to plant MY desires within you. I may infuse within you a dream that seems far beyond your reach.

You KNOW that in yourself you cannot achieve such a goal.

Thus begins your journey of PROFOUND RELIANCE ON ME. It is a FAITH-WALK, take ONE STEP AT A TIME, leaning on ME as much as you need. This is NOT a path of continual success but of MULTIPLE failures. However, each failure is followed by a GROWTH
SPURT, nourished by INCREASED RELIANCE ON ME!

ENJOY THE BLESSEDNESS of a VICTORIOUS life, through deepening your dependence on ME.

PS. 34:17 & 18 The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; He
delivers them from ALL their troubles. The Lord is CLOSE to the
brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

2 Cor. 5:7 For we walk by faith, NOT by sight. (Jesus Calling Jan 5th 2013
"

Boy do I know those failures!.....the growth spurts....well, in time.....looking back over these months, the growth will be more evident......now....I choose to keep my eyes and heart on HIM ♥ For I KNOW I CANNOT ACHIEVE SUCH A GOAL WITHOUT HIM! So Lord...infuse YOUR dreams deep within Doug and I as we continue our journey of PROFOUND RELIANCE ON YOU. It IS a faith walk, taken ONE STEP AT A TIME, LEANING ON HIM as often as we need to!

Thank you all for your continued prayers and love. The phone calls are wonderful. He's getting pretty good at letting folks know if he's tired and when he needs to hang up. After a call, he'll go over the memories each conversation has remind him of ♥ His walks down memory lane have been good!

Oh...and on another note...if you bless us with your comments..PLEASE post them on this site...(Otherwise I paste and copy them here)....they are ALWAYS  a blessing...and BE SURE YOU PUT YOUR NAME WITHIN THE POST ♥


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I can't think of any words to title this entry....except the symbols above....


Some days there seems to be waaay more of "US" then Him......I get overwhelmed in my head with thoughts of , "What am I going to do about?......What will happen when?"...and then there are days like today....Tomorrow is Rio's birthday. They will come here to celebrate with us, today.....I'll get Rio an Ice Cream Cake...He and Papa LOVE ice cream ♥.Rio and Doug have been close since the day he was born in our home, 14 years ago! One of the reasons we came to Missouri was because Doug missed Rio so much.

Today.....will be one of Doug's hardest days to date......not knowing how many more birthdays he will celebrate with Rio is more then Doug can handle...alone.....He needed God's promise of strength and courage...and God's love for him personally.....so, GOD put some powerful EXCLAMATION MARKS on and around Doug's heart and mind as we read His word! After each scripture, Doug asked me to read them again...and I did so...with tears of joy, for the Truth and the power of that TRUTH to our lives.

We were reading our "Jesus Calling" devotional, and were a day behind. Yesterday, Doug slept a lot, so I did my own quiet time and let him rest. This morning we are both up early, so did our quiet time together. Here is the reading for Nov. 10th:

"Focus your entire being on MY living Presence. I am most assuredly with you, enveloping you in My Love and Peace. While you relax in My Presence, I am molding your mind and cleansing your heart. I am recreating you into the one I designed you to be......Every moment is precious IF you keep your focus on ME! ANY day can be a good day, because MY PRESENCE permeates ALL TIME!

Yes, EVERY moment will be precious today....and we will keep our eyes on Him....even through the tears......and His Presence will permeanate our time together today.

Here are the scriptures that went with the devotional:

1 JOHN 3:19 -20

. 19) Our actions will show that we belong to the truth, so we will be confident when we stand before God. 20) Even if we feel guilty, God is greater than our feelings, and he knows everything. 
 (Yes Doug.....just My gentle reminder of My Truth.)

JUDE 1: 24-25
Oh...and Doug, if the one above isn't enough....here is another promise ♥ )
24 To Him who is able to keep you from falling and to present you before His glorious presence without fault and with great joy25 "to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore! Amen."

Thank You Lord for Your powerful reminders in Your Word, of Your Love, Grace and Mercy ♥ for ALL OF US......Thank You Lord for these personal experiences that continue to  fill us with Your strength and courage.

.So this morning we personalize the Jesus Calling devotional for us.....

"......most assuredly HE IS, enveloping US in HIS Love and Peace. When we relax in HIS Presence, HE IS molding OUR minds and cleansing our hearts. HE IS recreating US into the one HE designed US to be......Every moment is precious AS WE keep OUR focus on HIM! ANY day can be a good day, because HIS PRESENCE permeates ALL TIME!"


We claim this as fact...even as the tears run down our cheeks....tears are a gift from Him...they bring His healing into the very depth of our hearts...........I'm off to get Rio's Ice Cream Birthday Cake  ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

rio b day Here we are...minus Renee....(she's taking the pic) It was a good ice cream cake...and a precious time together ♥ Love you Rio....and Happy Birthday ♥

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".....IS NAILED TO THE CROSS....& I BEAR IT NO MORE...PTL"!
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This week as Doug and I listened to another of our Gaither Music Videos, the words of this old Hymn hit Doug with the mighty TRUTH of them for him PERSONALLY. These words, "My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought! My sin, not in part but the whole, Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more, Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!  " He  had talked with Pastor Ken in reference to his struggle that God had really forgiven him for ALL his sins! After their talk, Doug said he finely could accept and believe that this was TRUE for HIM ♥ Pastor Ken told him to find a big stake and pound it in the ground in the back yard. Then every time satin tried to bring those old doubts back, go out in the yard and "Pound that stake into the ground more!"  That's why the words "is nailed to the cross, and I bear it NO MORE" meant so much to him! Great visual Doug!

When Doug wants it sung, brings up a lot of sad emotions...and rightly so! Yet at the very same time...we are living our lives in the JOY of each other! We BOTH believe in a GOD who HEALS! We trust God for HIS WILL to be done. Back when I started this journal, the Lord had reminded me of His promise to us in: Psalms 139: 16 "All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. 17 How precious tob me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!"   Doug and I believe these words to be true.....we TRUST HIM with Doug's life..... God is his healer...He started that healing when He brought His peace to Doug, of the truth of His forgiveness of Doug's sins. He sees Doug washed clean and pure...a MIGHTY MAN OF GOD, wearing His robes of rightness ♥ WOW! What a powerful truth for ALL who choose to believe.....and then cry out, "Oh God, help thou my unbelief!" Then when God steps in and "helps us with OUR unbelief"...He does a perfect job of it!
 Here are the words of this song...and the link to the music........
  1. When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
    When sorrows like sea billows roll;
    Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
    It is well, it is well, with my soul.
    • Refrain:
      It is well, with my soul,
      It is well, it is well, with my soul.
  2. Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
    Let this blest assurance control,
    That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
    And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
  3. My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
    My sin, not in part but the whole,
    Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
    Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
  4. For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
    If Jordan above me shall roll,
    No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life
    Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
  5. But, Lord, ’tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
    The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
    Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
    Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!
  6. And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
    The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
    The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
    Even so, it is well with my soul.
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Each of us have different ways of dealing with the thought of letting our loved one go to be with their Lord.....there isn't a "set way'....each of us will face it the best we can...with Gods help....and respect each others ways..... Doug and I face it differently too. But one thing we have chosen to do each day..is to live it to the fullest God allows...we are sharing our love and respect for each other AND with our friends and family, in the time God gives us......living life in a far deeper way then we ever have before! For that we thank God! Our love grows stronger each and every day for each other......for friends and family,......and  for Him ♥ The times we have spent with friends and family are PRICELESS......the phone conversations that have brought such healing....PRICELESS.....the times of laughter and joy.....PRICELESS......I know I have said it before, but it's a timeless truth......GOD IS GOOD....ALL THE TIME......ALL THE TIME....GOD IS GOOD ♥ ♥

We thank you all for your continued prayer support.......and we pray for you all to. We face a very tough world out there....struggles face all of us every day....and so we bring our hearts and lives to Him in prayer....for "The touch of The Masters Hands".....for those facing surgery....cancer...jobless and financial struggles........broken promises and families....young folks who struggle with the ugly world they live in.....Oh my...do we ever need "That touch of our Masters Hands".....for His will to be done in all our lives! May His Love bath us and transform us....right in the middle of it all.....

Old Friends ♥ ♥ ♥
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Last weekend we had a visit from another dear Florida friend, Lin Smith ♥ It was just as if we'd seen each other the day before.....instead of 6...ya, s-i-x YEARS ago!  Friends of the heart ♥ know no time....they are forever ♥ On through eternity with our God ♥......but till then ....we so had a great time...catching up and just enjoying each others company ♥ We caught up on each others families...(although FB has kept us pretty caught up!) we relaxed, laughed, had some good food and even cried a bit.....but mostly we basked in our mutual friendship and love for each other ♥

Lin works for The Salvation Army's head quarters in Tampa Florida. Over a year ago, she booked tickets for their convention in St. Louis, Mo. When Doug got so sick, she decided one way or another, Lord willing, she was going to get from St. Louis to Boonville, Mo. to visit with us. That is a 2.5 hour trip. Well, she rented a car Friday evening, and made it to our place by 7pm.....and was out the front door by about 6:45am the next morning....needless to say...she didn't get a whole lot of sleep either...cause we stayed up gabbing till after 11pm......they were precious hours to each of us. Thank you Lin for your love and friendship ♥ We were so blessed to have this precious time with you ♥ ♥ And so thankful you got back to St Louis and Tampa safe and sound!

Doug and I were reading in Colossians this morning and when we read this verse, we agreed this has been so true for us and our Tampa Bay Community Church Family: Col. 2:2 "I want them to be encouraged and knit together by strong ties of Love" WOW! Have we had those "Strong ties of Love" lived out to us! Thank you Lord for Your people who know how to love like You do ♥ Doug and I are so BLESSED, because we have experienced Gods Love at Open Bible Praise Center too. Our Boonville church family has lived out God's love to us in so many ways! ♥ That is JUST how He meant His church to be...."God with skin on!"

The other day one of the Hospice ladies asked me if we were part of a local church. She said that a "church family" can be so supportive in the journey we are on. I told her we sure were...and we had wonderful support from our church family! I was thinking latter, that the church in general gets a lot of bad publicity sometimes...but here was a young lady who thinks of the church as a VERY GOOD resource for Godly support and love! That tells me she has seen first hand just how loving Gods people can be!

Lin Doug me

Day by Day.....♥ ♥
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It's been a while since I posted here. This is a new journey...one we're learning day by day, that is teaching us who we are....deep down inside. This is such a personal journey, we are finding a lot of it is so personal and precious, we haven't wanted to share it with anyone but HIM ♥ He is here with us....patiently guiding us...drawing us closer together as husband and wife....and drawing us closer together with family and friends. These conversations have been precious, whether they are by phone or one on one...the healing that is taking place in our hearts is life changing and healing of heart and soul ♥

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Last week Pastor Ken and Susy Klasson came for a visit from Florida. Pastor Ken married us....dedicated some of our grandchildren and our Tampa Bay Community Church Family were our Spiritual Parents in a time of our lives when we were in desperate need of being accepted "Just as we were"...a mess!...... This precious church family did exactly that! They were "God with skin on" for BOTH of us!  Doug was in utter amazement that Pastor Ken and Susy would come all the way to Missouri and stay in our home...JUST TO VISIT with HIM! He is STILL amazed by it! Distance and time has NOT diminished their love for one of Gods "Kids".....Mr. Douglas Roberts Springer ♥ Thank you both for your love, prayers and support! We enjoyed every moment with you both ♥  ♥

I was talking with Gwen yesterday and shared with her that I was learning what "Just As I Am" means......every day of our lives..God takes us "Just As We Are"....He not only sees our weaknesses...He understands why they are there...We are learning..."His Grace IS Sufficient'...."His Mercy is PERFECT....His LOVE is as deep, wide and as High as we will ever need it to be!

Yet life goes on.....There aren't any hallows or wings sprouting on either of us....I still have to go to work....Still have to pay bills...still have to live our daily lives...still get grumpy with each other.....still fuss over who  "controls" the TV remote when I get home from work......still have to cook meals....do laundry.....life goes on.....and we TRUST HIM with "our time together".....

Doug is "up and around"...and most days his spirits are good. He's NOT bed ridden.....He said to me yesterday, "I get the feeling folks think I'm dying and  I'm in bed, barely able to talk or move!".... he still has a wonderful sense of humor.....does he have some very bad days...yup..sure does....does he struggle with the "Why God?".....Yup, sure does...do we know when God will call him home....NOPE....do we know it will be one day in the months ahead...yup, we do...but as he keeps reminding me.....NONE of us have the promise of tomorrow....Doug's times....AND our times are in His hands ♥ Do we talk about "dying"....yes we do...but we talk about LIVING more! We share our hearts and love....there is more tenderness and patience for each other....life is sweeter to us....and We thank God for each and every day.

Hospice continues to be a huge blessing in so many ways! I got a call at work this week from our social services lady....she said she remembered a conversation we had had a week or so ago, and it made her wonder if maybe we could use some help  with our utility bills. I burst into tears....and answered her with a tearful "Yes, we sure could!" She had me fax her our light bill.....Saturday she called to let us know it would be paid by them! She apologized about calling on the weekend, but she didn't want us to worry all weekend about "If" they could pay it! We BOTH were so thankful for God's blessing through this wonderful organization ♥

As Pastor Randy, our Pastor here in Boonville says, "God is good ALL THE TIME.....ALL THE TIME, God is good!" We are BLESSED ♥ ♥ We both say "Thank you ALL for your continued prayer support ♥ It means so much...but NOT just for us....our local prayer chain sends out prayer request...and this weekend there were soooo many who need "The Touch of The Masters Hand."....facing cancer and surgery's.....yet, "THROUGH IT ALL"....we are learning to TRUST HIM.....and our trust is built up and encouraged by your prayers and love ♥

Yesterday I finished RE-reading "Hinds Feet On High Places", by Hannah Hurnard.....I want to end this with a quote from the last chapter of the book....(I LOVE her books....)

"First," said she, I learned that I must accept with joy all that You allowed to happen to me on the way and everything to which the path led me! That I was never to try to evade it but to accept it and lay down my own will on the altar and say, "Behold me..I am Thy little handmaiden Acceptance-with-Joy." ....Then I learned that I must bear all that others  were allowed to do against me and forgive with no trace of bitterness and to say to Thee, "Behold me...I am Thy little handmaiden Bearing-with-Love, that I may receive power to bring good out of this evil."
"The third thing that I learned was that You, my Lord, never regarded me as I actually was, lame and weak and crooked and cowardly. You saw me as I would be when You had done what You promised and had brought me to The High places, when it could be truly said, 'There is none that walks with such a queenly (Or kingly) ease, nor with such grace, as she (he).' You always treated me with the same love and graciousness as though I were a queen (or king) already and not wretched little Much Afraid."......"My Lord, I cannot tell You how greatly I want to regard others in the same way."
"The fourth thing," she said with a radiant face, "was really the first I learned up here. Every circumstance in life, no matter how crooked and distorted and ugly it appears to be, if it is reacted to in love and forgiveness and obedient to Your will, can be transformed."
"Therefore I begin to think, my Lord, You purposely allow us to be brought into contact with the bad and evil things that You want changed. perhaps that is the very reason that we are here in this world, where sin and sorrow and suffering and evil abound, so that we may let You teach us so to react to them, that out of them we can create lovely qualities to live forever. That is the only really satisfactory way of dealing with evil, not simply binding it so that it cannot work harm, but whenever possible overcome it with good."....."You have learned well, Grace and Glory.....so remember this;......"Accept and bear and obey the Law of Love, and nothing will be able to cripple your hind' feet or separate you from Me. This is the secret of The High places, Grace and Glory, it is the Lovely and perfect law of the whole universe. It is this that makes the radiant joy of the Heavenly places."......off they went, "leaping on the mountains and skipping on the hills," she sang this song:

Set me as a seal upon thine heart
Thou Love more strong than death
That I may feel through every part
Thy burning, fiery breath.
And then like wax held in the flame,
May take the imprint of thy Name.
Set me a seal upon thine arm,
Thou Love that bursts the grave,
Thy coals of fire can never harm,
But only purge and save.
Thou jealous Love, thou burning Flame,
Oh, burn out all unlike Thy Name.
Thy floods can never drown Thy Love,
Nor weaken Thy desire,
The rains may deluge from above
But never quench Thy fire.
Make soft my heart in Thy strong flame,
To take the imprint of Thy Name.
(Cant. 8:6)


Footprints In The Sand
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Last August....Doug and I took care of my friend Connie and her families new kitten and dog when they went to Florida for vacation. Last evening at a ladies retreat, Connie presents me with this photo she took back then. She had printed and framed it for us this week. I held it in my hands and just cried...it was sooo perfect for Doug and I.....right NOW ♥ The awesome thing is...she had NO idea JUST how perfect it would be...nor when she took the photo, did she notice the FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND ABOVE OUR NAMES!!!! It represents exactly what I have posted here...we are so aware HE IS CARRYING US....FOR THERE ARE ONLY ONE SET OF FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND ♥ The prayers of our friends and family are heard in the Heaven-lies...and HE IS CARING US! God KNEW our future..and He "wrote" His perspective in the sand..with Connie's finger, back in August ♥ Thank you Lord ♥ ♥ Thank you Connie ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

"Hero"
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Leah and Doug

Leah posted this to FB this morning for her Uncle Doug....."Thank you Leah"
"Hero"


There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your sould
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

[Chorus:]

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

[Chorus]

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

She also sent him this message: Good Morning Aunt Sylvia, I went to bed with you all on my mind and woke up this morning praying for you. Just wanted to share this scripture that I came across this morning..I pray that it lifts your spirits as it did mine ♥
2 Corinthians 4:17-18 "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
Give Uncle Doug my love..see you all soon ♥

Getting "REAL"....Good Advice from My Sister
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I love my family....and the words of wisdom from my precious sister Nat ♥ LOVE YOU NAT ♥

So here goes some "being real"...TODAY...DOUG WAS VERY SICK.....TODAY WAS PAINFUL!....I GOT ANGRY!...AND I CRIED A LOT!...AND I THREW SOMETHING AT MY PASTOR!.....How's THAT for REAL? What I threw is irrelevant.. ...and I was only trying to hit the couch he was sitting on...NOT him.....but, he may NOT have know that at the time....and I did apologize latter....I was angry and he got the brunt of it for a few seconds.....BTW...he took it very well! Thank you for being a forgiving person, Pastor Randy! He showed more mercy then I had in me this morning.

I called my precious daughter Renee after the nurse and Pastor Randy left. Dear Renee asked, "Mama, do you want me to come over?" And this Mama's heart was open for all the help she could get! What a huge blessing it was to have you here ♥ Thank you for just being "you" and the dear wise and tender women you have grown to be. Your advice to your Mom today was perfect also ♥ PLUS...you found the hard drive on line so I could use my "New" laptop with my printer....downloaded "Spyware" for my laptop...and watched Papa so I could go and get errands done! That may NOT seem a BIG deal...but for me TODAY...it was ALL a BIG deal! Thank you Renee ♥ I love you ♥

Doug....well....he had a really bad day....he started out very early this am with a fever of 104.8.... delirious and chills..... The Hospice Nurse came very quickly. After listening to his lungs she said they sounded pretty bad. She said he has a respiratory infection.... They put him on a "Z-Pac" (I think that's how you spell it) antibiotic....a strong one anyway. The nurse said we'll know in 24 hours if it will help him kick the infection....as of 8PM tonight, his fever is down to just over a 100! THANK YOU LORD! Doug is resting quietly, and has most of the afternoon and evening. The nurse has checked by phone, through out the day to be sure he's OK.

Those of you who know my husband very well, know he is one stubborn man.....even as sick as he has been today....his strong will has "shown through" in the early part of the day.....AND if you know me, I DON"T always handle his stubborn ways very well...and I needed MUCH prayer for my attitude and mercy today.........the good news....We both did better with each other this evening! One would think love and mercy would be alive and well in the midst of our struggles...and it has...but today it took a while for it re-surface...and when it did..it had been bathed in His love and mercy! Thank you Lord!

This last Sunday Connie Moore taught on "Forgiveness" in the chapel at the women's prison. Her words rang in my ears and heart today.....LOUD AND CLEAR.....and as I opened my heart to let HIM into ALL OF MY EMOTIONS today...He has stepped in with His tender mercy and gifted me with His Spirit of forgiveness and His mercy. He also filled me with strength and courage.....He heard all your prayers for us today...and He is continuing to answer them...His way..His timing......Thank you one and all ♥ We walked in the power of those prayers ♥http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGC9KT918Kk&playnext=1&list=PL3E1EE6EF2BA041F5&feature=results_main
Thank you Elly for this song....we will be listening to this song over and over again on our Journey with Our Master ♥

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