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It's been a while since I posted here. This is a new journey...one we're learning day by day, that is teaching us who we are....deep down inside. This is such a personal journey, we are finding a lot of it is so personal and precious, we haven't wanted to share it with anyone but HIM ♥ He is here with us....patiently guiding us...drawing us closer together as husband and wife....and drawing us closer together with family and friends. These conversations have been precious, whether they are by phone or one on one...the healing that is taking place in our hearts is life changing and healing of heart and soul ♥

better ken susie
Last week Pastor Ken and Susy Klasson came for a visit from Florida. Pastor Ken married us....dedicated some of our grandchildren and our Tampa Bay Community Church Family were our Spiritual Parents in a time of our lives when we were in desperate need of being accepted "Just as we were"...a mess!...... This precious church family did exactly that! They were "God with skin on" for BOTH of us!  Doug was in utter amazement that Pastor Ken and Susy would come all the way to Missouri and stay in our home...JUST TO VISIT with HIM! He is STILL amazed by it! Distance and time has NOT diminished their love for one of Gods "Kids".....Mr. Douglas Roberts Springer ♥ Thank you both for your love, prayers and support! We enjoyed every moment with you both ♥  ♥

I was talking with Gwen yesterday and shared with her that I was learning what "Just As I Am" means......every day of our lives..God takes us "Just As We Are"....He not only sees our weaknesses...He understands why they are there...We are learning..."His Grace IS Sufficient'...."His Mercy is PERFECT....His LOVE is as deep, wide and as High as we will ever need it to be!

Yet life goes on.....There aren't any hallows or wings sprouting on either of us....I still have to go to work....Still have to pay bills...still have to live our daily lives...still get grumpy with each other.....still fuss over who  "controls" the TV remote when I get home from work......still have to cook meals....do laundry.....life goes on.....and we TRUST HIM with "our time together".....

Doug is "up and around"...and most days his spirits are good. He's NOT bed ridden.....He said to me yesterday, "I get the feeling folks think I'm dying and  I'm in bed, barely able to talk or move!".... he still has a wonderful sense of humor.....does he have some very bad days...yup..sure does....does he struggle with the "Why God?".....Yup, sure does...do we know when God will call him home....NOPE....do we know it will be one day in the months ahead...yup, we do...but as he keeps reminding me.....NONE of us have the promise of tomorrow....Doug's times....AND our times are in His hands ♥ Do we talk about "dying"....yes we do...but we talk about LIVING more! We share our hearts and love....there is more tenderness and patience for each other....life is sweeter to us....and We thank God for each and every day.

Hospice continues to be a huge blessing in so many ways! I got a call at work this week from our social services lady....she said she remembered a conversation we had had a week or so ago, and it made her wonder if maybe we could use some help  with our utility bills. I burst into tears....and answered her with a tearful "Yes, we sure could!" She had me fax her our light bill.....Saturday she called to let us know it would be paid by them! She apologized about calling on the weekend, but she didn't want us to worry all weekend about "If" they could pay it! We BOTH were so thankful for God's blessing through this wonderful organization ♥

As Pastor Randy, our Pastor here in Boonville says, "God is good ALL THE TIME.....ALL THE TIME, God is good!" We are BLESSED ♥ ♥ We both say "Thank you ALL for your continued prayer support ♥ It means so much...but NOT just for us....our local prayer chain sends out prayer request...and this weekend there were soooo many who need "The Touch of The Masters Hand."....facing cancer and surgery's.....yet, "THROUGH IT ALL"....we are learning to TRUST HIM.....and our trust is built up and encouraged by your prayers and love ♥

Yesterday I finished RE-reading "Hinds Feet On High Places", by Hannah Hurnard.....I want to end this with a quote from the last chapter of the book....(I LOVE her books....)

"First," said she, I learned that I must accept with joy all that You allowed to happen to me on the way and everything to which the path led me! That I was never to try to evade it but to accept it and lay down my own will on the altar and say, "Behold me..I am Thy little handmaiden Acceptance-with-Joy." ....Then I learned that I must bear all that others  were allowed to do against me and forgive with no trace of bitterness and to say to Thee, "Behold me...I am Thy little handmaiden Bearing-with-Love, that I may receive power to bring good out of this evil."
"The third thing that I learned was that You, my Lord, never regarded me as I actually was, lame and weak and crooked and cowardly. You saw me as I would be when You had done what You promised and had brought me to The High places, when it could be truly said, 'There is none that walks with such a queenly (Or kingly) ease, nor with such grace, as she (he).' You always treated me with the same love and graciousness as though I were a queen (or king) already and not wretched little Much Afraid."......"My Lord, I cannot tell You how greatly I want to regard others in the same way."
"The fourth thing," she said with a radiant face, "was really the first I learned up here. Every circumstance in life, no matter how crooked and distorted and ugly it appears to be, if it is reacted to in love and forgiveness and obedient to Your will, can be transformed."
"Therefore I begin to think, my Lord, You purposely allow us to be brought into contact with the bad and evil things that You want changed. perhaps that is the very reason that we are here in this world, where sin and sorrow and suffering and evil abound, so that we may let You teach us so to react to them, that out of them we can create lovely qualities to live forever. That is the only really satisfactory way of dealing with evil, not simply binding it so that it cannot work harm, but whenever possible overcome it with good."....."You have learned well, Grace and Glory.....so remember this;......"Accept and bear and obey the Law of Love, and nothing will be able to cripple your hind' feet or separate you from Me. This is the secret of The High places, Grace and Glory, it is the Lovely and perfect law of the whole universe. It is this that makes the radiant joy of the Heavenly places."......off they went, "leaping on the mountains and skipping on the hills," she sang this song:

Set me as a seal upon thine heart
Thou Love more strong than death
That I may feel through every part
Thy burning, fiery breath.
And then like wax held in the flame,
May take the imprint of thy Name.
Set me a seal upon thine arm,
Thou Love that bursts the grave,
Thy coals of fire can never harm,
But only purge and save.
Thou jealous Love, thou burning Flame,
Oh, burn out all unlike Thy Name.
Thy floods can never drown Thy Love,
Nor weaken Thy desire,
The rains may deluge from above
But never quench Thy fire.
Make soft my heart in Thy strong flame,
To take the imprint of Thy Name.
(Cant. 8:6)


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Hinds Feet on High Places

(Anonymous)
Thank you for the update Sylvia and thank you for the quote from Hinds Feet... it made me cry as it reveals so beautifully how pain is always the way we come to wholeness and healing and to understand who He is and how much He loves us.
Love you,
Natalie

Hessie Watts and Gwen Street like this.

Joanna Miller Moore...... well said sister, love you guys!

Vangie McCormick...... So glad you are verbalizing your journey. Who knows what help it will be to someone else in the future, beside being a cathartic for you. Keeping you in prayer on a regular basis.

Naomi Valverde .......That was so real and beautiful, Sylvia. I feel as if I'd had a face-to-face chat with you.

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